sa tv aham tyakta-karunyas
kan lokan vai gamisyami
brahma-heva mrtah svasan
Translation by His Divine Grace A. C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Srila Prabhupada:
Being merciless and cruel, I have forsaken all my relatives and friends. Therefore, like a person who has killed a brahmana, I do not know to which planet I shall go, either after death or while breathing.